I had an experience once at a party where there was a mixed gender crowd of about twenty people. I left my body during a very curious personal moment, not intending to go OOB, but when I looked over to the sofa and saw my body sitting there I kinda figured it out. ;-)

I found myself near two young college girls who were sitting on the floor in the middle of the living room of this house down by the Tar River. They were having a conversation about something that had happened during one of their classes. I started talking to one of the girls, and she responded to me without stopping her
conversation to the other girl. At this point she seemed to be talking to both of us at the same time. Her personality continued it's conversation with the other girl, and another aspect of herself simultaneously talked to me. At the same time I was talking to her, my body over on the sofa was having an animated conversation with an old friend of mine, while I was talking to the girl while out of body.

This incident got me to thinking that my personality can operate quite well without awareness of my anima, while my anima is aware of itself and the personality simultaneously.

Since that particular incident I have realized I am not aware of my anima most of the time, and I only assume that it is always out and about doing as it pleases, and communicating with other entities, some with bodies and others not, without the awareness of my personality.

This seems similar to entering the dream world and believing myself to participate in that dream world without awareness that at the same time I'm laying in my bed sleeping. Sometime, however, I am aware that I'm laying in my bed sleeping and also aware that I'm participating in my dream world at the same time.

It seems possible to have some sort of control with this. I don't seem to have it. I feel lucky if I am aware of both povs happening simultaneously and when it does happen it happens randomly and serendipitiously. I suspect having control is a matter of intent.

Maybe the control of intent is the secret the Sayings teaches. I'm halfway guessing here, but I seem sure intent comes from my anima, and I also suspect that my personality foolishly thinks it controls intent simply because it does seem to exert control over my identity or who I "think" I am.

There is a deep yearning to resolve this issue and this yearning is represented poignantly by Rodney King who said, "Why can't we all just get along." LOL

The conflict between my anima and my personality over identity and intent postures itself as the true mystery of life... for me. My personality wants to control intent and my anima wants to be recognized as my true identity.

I figure this dichotomy represents the father/son deal in the Gospel of Thomas, and is also addressed in the sayings about rendering and blasphemy.